my miracle baby...josh

on 04022009, i went to my gynae's clinic for a follow up checkup for my baby. appointment was at 12 plus.reached there and as usual long queue awaits.just before my turn, my gynae have to rush to the labour room to deliver a baby.that was about 1.30pm. i was like...sigh...so walter and i went to makan at the dome...they served great mushroom soup n garlic bread...mmmm...yummy....

came back to the clinic and i finally managed to see my gynae at 3 plus. the check up was not a favourable one...
1. baby was not growing for the last 3 weeks @ 2kg
2. water bag leaking
3. baby's heartbeat report was not satisfying

oops....my gynae asked me to admit myself for 2 nights for monitoring purpose... so, to cut the whole story short....i ended up in the operating theatre (ot) instead of the normal ward.it was an emergency case as baby's heartbeat was slowing down....before i was pushed into the ot....

1. gynae said " if baby stay in there one more day, sure die ...."
2. labour room nurse commented " kalau baby macam ini keluar pun tentu pucat dan tak menangis (in bahasa)"
3. mid wife said " wo pa pa (i'm scared-in mandarin)"

.......the voices of the negative world...........

i have mixture of feelings at that time. no words can describe my feelings. like a rojak thingy....fearful, ??, worry, ??, negative thoughts, ??... and etc...but.... at that particular moment of time, i strongly experienced HIS presence and PEACE. i know GOD will have the best plan for me...no matter what happen....

tiny baby josh was taken out safely. he was sent to the high dependency unit (hdu) for further check ups. everything was fine except for his temperature (not so stabilised). he was transferred to the nursery the following day.

my gynae's told me baby was taken out in the nick of time. there were no reasons being of the complications. the only possibility was the placenta.... baby was not absorbing the nutrients and oxygen....

today, we are living in a world of technology where we can enjoy many...many.. things. medically, many lives have been preserved due to the technology. yet, at times technology cannot provide us the answers and solutions.

as for my case, some people say i'm lucky, some people might say it's the technology. but i say, it's a miracle. a miracle from GOD. i thank GOD for preserving my baby's life.

PRAISE AND GLORY TO MY GOD!!

Always Appreciate Little Things

I like to share the following email I received from my aunt today....

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband. For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in a showroom, and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.

As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband had purchased the diamond ring. Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study room. Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife, and told her how much he loved her. He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold.

Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible? And stormed out of the house, leaving her husband.

Many years passed and the lady was very successful in business.. She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family, but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years. But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things.

When she arrived at her ex-husband's house, sudden sadness and regret filled her heart. She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years before.

With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. Her ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11, "And if you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father, who is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?"

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a diamond ring, with her name engraved on it -- the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom. On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words...'LUV U ALWAYS'...

How many times do we miss God's blessings, because they are not packaged as we expected?

Do not spoil what you have, by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT, IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS! ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO BIGGER THINGS!

爱是永不止息-李艾媚

2月27日晚上8时30分，阿辉与阿比在我们（婆婆、季仁与我）到吉隆坡美罗帐幕神召会会所，为第二天要举行的婚礼进行彩排。
抵达目的地时，钟国强牧师与其他身负任务的弟兄姐妹已在那儿等候。五名小花童与伴郎伴娘一次又一次地陪着准新郎与准新娘排练。优美的旋律在回荡，季仁挽着阿比的手，迈着稳健的步子，缓缓进入礼堂，在众人的掌声中，将阿比交给站在台前的阿辉。
彩排结束后已是10时许，我们先回住处，一些弟兄姐妹仍留在会场布置。他们的爱心与付出，我们衷心感谢。
婚礼于2月28日下午1时30分开始。钟牧师如此介绍阿辉--一个彬彬有礼的青年，做事勤快认真，对老人和小孩特别有爱心，不过，在羽球场上完全没有情可讲，即使对手是牧师也照杀（杀球）不误。至于阿比，牧师形容她有如一朵含苞欲放的花，文静而美丽。这对年轻人在教会中相识相爱的过程，钟牧师全看在眼里，他还“爆”出一个秘密。
2004年，钟牧师带领一班年轻人到金马伦高原参加一个营会。一天清晨，牧师把头伸到窗外呼吸新鲜空气，看见阿比独自坐在外面读经祷告。不一会儿，大门被人轻轻拉开，一个男生蹑手蹑脚的走出来，坐在阿比身旁......
“爱”让两个年轻人走在一块儿。牧师朗读哥林多前书第十三章第4节至第8节，诠释爱的真谛。
“爱是恒久忍耐又有恩慈，爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸，不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶，不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理，凡是包容，凡是相信，凡是盼望，凡是忍耐，爱是永不止息。”
原上帝的旨意成就在阿辉与阿比身上，愿他们的爱永不止息。阿门！

超乎一切的上帝

“感谢赞美神!!”.. 这是今早4.30am凌晨起来所做的一件事…就是感谢赞美神…大家可别误会了我的意思, 以为我好像非常属灵的… 而是我觉得自己太过亏欠神了… 所以一大清早天还未亮的时候, 就起身向神认罪悔改, 求神怜悯我…

接着就打开了我们的部落格lifeisabouthim, 又那么碰巧就读到了James所写的 “Busy economy, Busy Christian” 这一篇文章… 第一个时间提醒了我, my life is about HIM... 是的, 祂奇妙的作为在我身上…

因祂为我开道路 :

在所谓目前经济不景气的时刻, 祂的手一路的牵引着我, 让我看到祂奇妙的作为在我身上. 因着祂的带领, 我看到了我目前的经济状况是美好的.. 因我相信祂是赐丰盛生命的主… 因之前会很担心自己的经济状况而无法参与教会所实行的建堂基金计划… 自己的确为了这件事而感到非常担忧及没有信心…

但感谢赞美上帝, 虽然在人看来是不可能的事, 但在神凡是都能.. 我就凭着信心参与了这建堂基金的计划, 认捐了一个数目… 感谢主, 凭着那次信心的宣告, 我看到了上帝的作为, 祂不单加倍了我的经济, 也加倍了我对祂的信心… 因我看到了当我们凭着信心去行每一样事情时, 祂必会赐给我们意想不到的平安及收获… 感谢赞美主!!

就好像James所写到的 “Our God and His people should not be shaken by the cycle of financial crisis or instability of demand-and-supply market. Our God and His people should be above all the reports from bloomberg.com.”

感谢主, 因祂是超乎一切的上帝!! 愿一切的尊贵荣耀都归给我们至高无上的上帝!!

Busy economy, Busy Christian

This is the season of getting busy. Well, I think no one would disagree with me when I say the world economy looks pretty bad now. Even country like Malaysia with lots of natural resources cannot escape from the effect of the global downturn. 

Report has not shown good outcome, as figures shown that US spending growth is very slow in Feb-09 “....Overall confidence, even though it’s at low levels, ... as people are just spending on bare necessities..." 27-Mar-09, bloomberg.com . I must say that this is quite a worrying report.

As simple as ABC, when less are being spent, less multiplying effect in economy and therefore the slow (or dead) economy will need to be 'kick-start" to regenerate the activities, to regain momentum. Believe me if this is new to you, when US people start to spend less, it is bad for the whole world.

So in times like this, everyone, at least myself, need to stay very busy looking forward to perform their best ever in their work place. Now the aim may not be so much of earning extra or looking forward to promotion or something, but to make best effort just to maintain their position or salary in their work place, performing for the overall growth of the company to 'save own neck'. Or for business owners, working doubly hard in order to cushion the fall in revenue that has come or about to come.

Bottom line is, busy busy busy...

However, when I start to think about the church building project and our Pastor's vision for the growth of the church, and that reminds me that our God and His people really should be above all economic structures and rules. Our God and His people should not be shaken by the cycle of financial crisis or instability of demand-and-supply market. Our God and His people should be above all the reports from bloomberg.com.

Many people are like me I guess, always look forward for complicated theory and practices, and often forget to apply the most basic ones. And the most basic ones are usually very crucial.

This one is basic. When God plan to do something, the plan will happen no matter how. Maybe God doesn't need to "plan" at all, maybe He will just "Do it" without the need to plan since He is a all-knowing God and He knows the future. Well, in this case, economy is a 'too-tiny' factor that can affect His plan. 

I'm glad that I worship a God that is above all things, be it tangible or intangible things. Aren't you?

So I think we can be busy, but need not worry. Bible says "don't worry, be happy" (rejoice) mah !

Thank God for He is God that rules  

:- )

 

 

好朋友（给适耕庄的慧婷）

好想与大家分享这篇文章，不是要炫耀自己，不是要荣耀自己。但只想要说，感谢神创造了一个这样的我。

这篇文章是从美里传真过来给我的，作者是李艾媚（文中阿比的妈妈）。

阿比住在旺莎玛珠一座组屋内，每个单位有两个房间。阿比独住一间，还有三个女孩（丽凤，丽环与慧婷，前两位是同胞姐妹。）住另一间。

白天，四个好朋友各自上班；晚上下班的时间也不一样，大家各有各忙，唯一共同的活动是星期天早上一起到教会敬拜上帝。

2007年3月，季仁与我偷得数日闲，特地飞到吉隆坡去探望两个女儿，我们就住在阿比那里。抵达阿比的住处时已是深夜十一时许，女孩子们还没有就寝。丽凤和丽环在客厅观赏电视节目，慧婷则在阿比房里帮忙收拾。阿比难为情地笑，声称因为太忙碌，所以无暇整理自己的“窝”，幸好慧婷仗义帮助。我们向慧婷道谢，她有点腼腆，微笑着表示那算不了什么。

第二天，阿比下班回到住所已经近晚上九时，我到厨房去打算烧一锅水给阿比洗个热水澡，没想到煤气炉上已有一锅刚煮沸的水，是慧婷为阿比预备的。那一刻，我说不出心中有多感动。那是一位多么善良而又体贴的女孩啊！

这一回去吉隆坡，前两晚我们住在阿辉为我们租的公寓（每日租金四百令吉）。第三天是三月一日，阿比安排我们住她那儿。其实那个房间已不属于阿比，因为慧婷已将它租下。正确地说，是慧婷将她的房间让给我们暂住。

房间还是老样子，只是属于阿比的东西已搬走。地上铺着床褥，还有枕头和被单。房门的把手上挂着一串五颜六色的小纸片。我好奇的翻阅，原来都是圣经上的经节，是慧婷一字一句，工工整整地抄下来送给阿比的。可以想像，过去几年，每当我们小女儿情绪低落又不想让父母担心时，慧婷是如何像一个大姐姐般扶持着她。这个女孩的年纪其实比阿比小呢！我的心再一次被溶化。阿比何其幸运，拥有一位这么好的朋友。

慧婷，安娣非常欣赏你，愿上帝使你福杯满溢，你一生一世必有恩惠慈爱跟随着，你且要住在耶和华的殿中，直到永远。阿们！


短短的一篇文章，让我感动得哭了！！

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