When I give away something that I have, then I would have less in my pocket. So subconsciously I would think God is also like me, not easy to give away. Or maybe I think, He will always be over careful that if He bless me more than enough, the blessings may "spoilt" me or something. Point is, very hard to believe His abundant blessing is real.
As God spoke to me recently, then I understand (again) that He owns everything, including even things that I own. He can make things out of nothing, and He has all the resources in the world that He can mobilised to make my 'wish come true', that means if He like it, he can make Bill Gates knock on my door and give me a cheque. Well, sometimes He may choose to train up my 'fishing skill' or give me fishing rod rather than feeding me fish all the time.
All this that He has planned for me, has got one purpose. He loves me and has planned a good plan to bless me.
God wants to bless His church, Metro. and what I understand from Him is, He wants to bless His church through His people. I learned that if God wants to bless His church through me, He can choose to bless my 'pocket' so that He can bless the church through me.
But before that happen, I guess I must 'practise' give more than I should to the Kingdom.... then He will look down from heaven and maybe He'll says this ... " Hmmmm... this fellow is picking it up already, he's cool. I think He won't hold the money to himself. Let's give him more, might as well work through one of our kids then other means... "
Good plan huh? Let me practise to give more. Because through the telescope of faith, that's where we see His plan coming to past. If we stop believing, He would hold the horse, waiting for me to connect with Him with faith again.
God will bless Metro as a church, and God will bless us a child of God !