Thursday, 23 April 2009

my miracle baby...josh

on 04022009, i went to my gynae's clinic for a follow up checkup for my baby. appointment was at 12 plus.reached there and as usual long queue awaits.just before my turn, my gynae have to rush to the labour room to deliver a baby.that was about 1.30pm. i was walter and i went to makan at the dome...they served great mushroom soup n garlic bread...mmmm...yummy....

came back to the clinic and i finally managed to see my gynae at 3 plus. the check up was not a favourable one...
1. baby was not growing for the last 3 weeks @ 2kg
2. water bag leaking
3. baby's heartbeat report was not satisfying gynae asked me to admit myself for 2 nights for monitoring purpose... so, to cut the whole story short....i ended up in the operating theatre (ot) instead of the normal was an emergency case as baby's heartbeat was slowing down....before i was pushed into the ot....

1. gynae said " if baby stay in there one more day, sure die ...."
2. labour room nurse commented " kalau baby macam ini keluar pun tentu pucat dan tak menangis (in bahasa)"
3. mid wife said " wo pa pa (i'm scared-in mandarin)"

.......the voices of the negative world...........

i have mixture of feelings at that time. no words can describe my feelings. like a rojak thingy....fearful, ??, worry, ??, negative thoughts, ??... and etc...but.... at that particular moment of time, i strongly experienced HIS presence and PEACE. i know GOD will have the best plan for matter what happen....

tiny baby josh was taken out safely. he was sent to the high dependency unit (hdu) for further check ups. everything was fine except for his temperature (not so stabilised). he was transferred to the nursery the following day.

my gynae's told me baby was taken out in the nick of time. there were no reasons being of the complications. the only possibility was the placenta.... baby was not absorbing the nutrients and oxygen....

today, we are living in a world of technology where we can enjoy many...many.. things. medically, many lives have been preserved due to the technology. yet, at times technology cannot provide us the answers and solutions.

as for my case, some people say i'm lucky, some people might say it's the technology. but i say, it's a miracle. a miracle from GOD. i thank GOD for preserving my baby's life.


Always Appreciate Little Things

I like to share the following email I received from my aunt today....

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband. For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in a showroom, and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.

As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband had purchased the diamond ring. Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study room. Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife, and told her how much he loved her. He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold.

Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible? And stormed out of the house, leaving her husband.

Many years passed and the lady was very successful in business.. She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family, but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years. But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things.

When she arrived at her ex-husband's house, sudden sadness and regret filled her heart. She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years before.

With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. Her ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11, "And if you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father, who is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?"

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a diamond ring, with her name engraved on it -- the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom. On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words...'LUV U ALWAYS'...

How many times do we miss God's blessings, because they are not packaged as we expected?

Do not spoil what you have, by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.




Friday, 17 April 2009


“感谢赞美神!!”.. 这是今早4.30am凌晨起来所做的一件事…就是感谢赞美神…大家可别误会了我的意思, 以为我好像非常属灵的… 而是我觉得自己太过亏欠神了… 所以一大清早天还未亮的时候, 就起身向神认罪悔改, 求神怜悯我…

接着就打开了我们的部落格lifeisabouthim, 又那么碰巧就读到了James所写的 “Busy economy, Busy Christian” 这一篇文章… 第一个时间提醒了我, my life is about HIM... 是的, 祂奇妙的作为在我身上…

因祂为我开道路 :

在所谓目前经济不景气的时刻, 祂的手一路的牵引着我, 让我看到祂奇妙的作为在我身上. 因着祂的带领, 我看到了我目前的经济状况是美好的.. 因我相信祂是赐丰盛生命的主… 因之前会很担心自己的经济状况而无法参与教会所实行的建堂基金计划… 自己的确为了这件事而感到非常担忧及没有信心…

但感谢赞美上帝, 虽然在人看来是不可能的事, 但在神凡是都能.. 我就凭着信心参与了这建堂基金的计划, 认捐了一个数目… 感谢主, 凭着那次信心的宣告, 我看到了上帝的作为, 祂不单加倍了我的经济, 也加倍了我对祂的信心… 因我看到了当我们凭着信心去行每一样事情时, 祂必会赐给我们意想不到的平安及收获… 感谢赞美主!!

就好像James所写到的 “Our God and His people should not be shaken by the cycle of financial crisis or instability of demand-and-supply market. Our God and His people should be above all the reports from”

感谢主, 因祂是超乎一切的上帝!! 愿一切的尊贵荣耀都归给我们至高无上的上帝!!

Thursday, 16 April 2009

Busy economy, Busy Christian

This is the season of getting busy. Well, I think no one would disagree with me when I say the world economy looks pretty bad now. Even country like Malaysia with lots of natural resources cannot escape from the effect of the global downturn. 

Report has not shown good outcome, as figures shown that US spending growth is very slow in Feb-09 “....Overall confidence, even though it’s at low levels, ... as people are just spending on bare necessities..." 27-Mar-09, . I must say that this is quite a worrying report.

As simple as ABC, when less are being spent, less multiplying effect in economy and therefore the slow (or dead) economy will need to be 'kick-start" to regenerate the activities, to regain momentum. Believe me if this is new to you, when US people start to spend less, it is bad for the whole world.

So in times like this, everyone, at least myself, need to stay very busy looking forward to perform their best ever in their work place. Now the aim may not be so much of earning extra or looking forward to promotion or something, but to make best effort just to maintain their position or salary in their work place, performing for the overall growth of the company to 'save own neck'. Or for business owners, working doubly hard in order to cushion the fall in revenue that has come or about to come.

Bottom line is, busy busy busy...

However, when I start to think about the church building project and our Pastor's vision for the growth of the church, and that reminds me that our God and His people really should be above all economic structures and rules. Our God and His people should not be shaken by the cycle of financial crisis or instability of demand-and-supply market. Our God and His people should be above all the reports from

Many people are like me I guess, always look forward for complicated theory and practices, and often forget to apply the most basic ones. And the most basic ones are usually very crucial.

This one is basic. When God plan to do something, the plan will happen no matter how. Maybe God doesn't need to "plan" at all, maybe He will just "Do it" without the need to plan since He is a all-knowing God and He knows the future. Well, in this case, economy is a 'too-tiny' factor that can affect His plan. 

I'm glad that I worship a God that is above all things, be it tangible or intangible things. Aren't you?

So I think we can be busy, but need not worry. Bible says "don't worry, be happy" (rejoice) mah !

Thank God for He is God that rules  

:- )



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Friday, 3 April 2009

Bukan Dengan Barang Fana

Bukan dengan barang fana
Kau membayar dosa ku
oleh darah yang maha
Tiada noda dan cela

Bukan dengan emas perak
Kau menebus diriku
Oleh segenap kasih
Dan pengorbanan mu

Ku telah mati dan tinggalkan
Cara hidup ku yang lama
Semuanya sia-sia dan tak bereti lagi
Hidup ini ku letakkan
Pada mezbah-mu ya tuhan
Jadilah padaku seperti yang kau ingini